Finding and Creating Oneself

N says: Find an obsession! Something that consumes your time and gets your mind off your bitter and angry thoughts. You need to figure out what you like and obsess over it.

M says: But I don't know what I like...that's the whole problem.

N: Deep down you must know. You've just lost yourself.

And M eventually found herself. She sang a song with friends and her spirits lifted. She bought a book of Tarot cause she new she obsessed on esoteric things, she wrote on her blog about things that she found interesting cause that made her happy, she went travelling cause that was part of who she was...

But it was all part of a deep painfull process of self discovery and of discovering relationships with people and with things that were deep and profound.

Little bit of Love

No more MIGRANIA

I've finally found the connection between it all. It all has to do with the digestion , or indigestion. And then that connects to some nerve in my head, just behind my right eye, which creates this massive pain, and when it gets horrible, then my neck, the very right side aches as well.

Ways to stop it when I am alone:

1. Go to the bathroom.
2. Massage my feet and apply pressure on the stomach and neck points. Find the spot in the foot that hurts when pressuring and press it and massage it.
3. Take an alkaseltzer.
4. Drink water.
5. Go to the toilet as many times as possible.

When with someone, add the pulling of the back skin, la "tirada de cuerito". Works marvelously well.

6. Burp and get the indigestion out.

See the pain go away...

Happy Quote

Columbia Road

IS IT A SIGN?

La impotencia de perder un vuelo...

Llegue 5 minutos tarde al security point!! Fucking security point! Ahora que...son esos dias en que la indecision me mata!

Pero bueno...ya estoy metida en el baile. A nadie le importa si lloro o pataleo. Llegue tarde. Y lo perdi!

Y encima es un dia increible y el proximo vuelo sale en 5 horas. 5 horas clavada en un aeropuerto. No me pienso encerrar. Asi que que hago?? Me voy a ver como aterrizan los aviones. Claramente algo entretenido debe haber en eso...sino no habria tanta gente. Pero que?

No se...pero tengo que quemar horas. Paso a paso:
1. Ir al banio a lavarme la cara y ademas...a ir al banio.
2. Mirar libros. Algun New Release interesante? Con mi malhumor nada me tienta pero bueno.
3. Compar una revista frivola. Me quedo con Glamour que trae un producto para el pelo gratis.
4. Fumar varios puchos afuera mientra tomo sol y veo lo aviones.
5. Comer algo...
6. Escribir, meditar, escribir, pensar...
7. Pensar en que voy a hacer de aca al resto del anio.
8. Actualizar mi profile en mi CV.
9...No perderme el proximo avion.
10. No pensar en lo caro que me salio toda esta jodita.

Happiness Quota per Day

Quiero ser mas feliz, y eso implica un poco de consistencia en las actividades que me hacen bien.

Below is my happiness resolution:
1- Do one well being activity per day: Yoga, meditate/ Pilates/ strech.
2-Sports: 2 times a week ( bicycle to work counts!)
3- Do one activity that will have major repercussions in the long term ( this activity is meant to be one of those things that when you look back on time and think about what you achieved you'll think "Yeah, wrote it!"N "Yeah, studied this", "Yeah, spent all this time there". So say if I am not taking a course, or writing a book, or editing a project, or travelling, I am not doing any of these. I have to ensure this is part of my daily agenda. At least occupies my head for 30 minutes per day. Maybe each morning...
4- Socialise with people that give me love, cherish me, bring me happiness, respect me, are my friends or desire my friendship. Do not hang out with people that do not do any of the above.
5- Spend less time on my phone.
6- Be more concious of nature, earth, what's happening around me( Do not use phone!)
7- Blog daily...with inspiration!

Time Management - so important!

Yesterday, I went to a Toastmasters meeting for the first time. Since arriving to London, I'd been facing some challenges when giving presentations to english speaking audiences. My first: speaking with the right vocabulary, the right words, without getting insecure and red in the face. My second: Avoid being intimidated at meeting with super confident people.

It's all a matter of self confidence, and trusting your abilities to express yourself clearly. Anyway, while I was listening to one of the interesting speeches, I came across this very interesting topic: time management.

A man was saying how he had retired early and had done nothing for ten years. He had found it quite enjoyable not having to work at all, and had loved the experience. But he had figured out, that in order to do this you do have to learn how to time manage your day because if not you found time passes, and you have found you've done nothing in ten years. Still he had really enjoyed doing nothing with his time, or doing things he did enjoy with his time. He was a lazy bastard probably.

Yep. Feel a bit identified. Would love to be doing nothing right now.

Combining everything

So i grew up, but I needed to find new ways to express myself. And engineering did not turn out to be very creative on a working environment.
So I decided to travel to find out...whatever form of career existed towards finding the right activity that would complete me.

Numbers

I love numbers, and formulas, and solving problems. I thought I would become an inventor at some point...

But I became an Engineer intead.